
29 Weeks & Counting
I can't believe I'm almost 30 weeks along. Ten more to go seems like nothing! Last night when I woke up at 4 a.m. and
couldn't go back to sleep for an hour, I was contemplating my experience being pregnant. Here are some thoughts.
At the risk of sounding too happy-go-lucky — I can honestly say I have loved being pregnant. Really. It has been such an exciting, fascinating and
happy experience.
Physically, I have felt great and I think it's fun to have a little
belly.One of my favorite things is feeling my little girl move and imagining her little body squirming around. I am so excited to see what she looks like! Is it weird that I am really excited to
squish her thighs? I just think baby legs are so cute.
But amidst the fun of pregnancy and anticipation about our baby, I haven't gone without a few
emotional breakdowns — especially in my 3rd trimester. Here some things that have gotten me down from time to time.
Sometimes I am just overwhelmed by the prospect of being a good mother in addition to the
good wife I am
trying to be. I already make mistakes in that area, and know I'll make more as a mom.
Sometimes I worry that I will have to go through the
hard things I've seen others go through as parents — like my own strong mom has. I can't imagine the pain of losing a first child (or any child, at that) or suffering the effects of a difficult divorce.
Most of all, I worry about my girl growing up and us not being close — or her not liking me or thinking I am just the
lame mom she got stuck with.
It sounds obvious, but what helps me the most when those thoughts come into my mind (often inconveniently in the
wee hours of the morning) is to replace them with positive, confident self-affirmations. To remember that my role as a mother was cut out for me long ago. Heavenly Father trusts me to be a mother. And he doesn't only trust that I'll scrape by — he believes I will
succeed at it. And how could I be scared when He and my amazing husband are on my side?
Romans 8:31:What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can a be against us?
Forgive me for
spilling my emotions ... and thanks for hearing me out if you read this far!